Its 20:26, I’m sat at my desk staring blankly at a pile of books I have to read for my dissertation, the culmination of three years at university: The dreaded project, that compulsory 10,000 word monster. Unfortunately for me any interest I had in the subject prior to taking up a degree in it, has been bashed out of me and replaced by a feeling of contempt. I look at that pile books and begin to feel physically sick. Ok maybe that is an exaggeration, but a feeling of foreboding is mostly certainly coming over me!
I do a history degree, I tell people this and the response often is something along the lines of ‘so … are you going to become a teacher?’ My answer … ‘no, I’m bloody not!’ A weeks worth of work experience in school certainly scared me off for life – the children, the screaming, the chaos! I just don’t have the patience.
The other question I frequently get asked is ‘you don’t like your course – A £30,000 debt at the end of it is a lot isn’t it?’ Yes of course it’s a lot, but even though History is NOT my cup of tea, nor is it my future career I wouldn’t change a thing. University is a fantastic middle step, I’ve experienced my independence and I love it. I’ve also had the chance to experience things, realistically I would have probably never experienced had I gone straight to work – Radio, Journalism and of course pole dancing (the fitness kind NOT the prancing around in no clothes kind!) And I’ve made some of the best friends I’ve had in my life.
So now that its 22:58 and I am no further with that pile of dissertation reading, but however much I don’t like history, reading or writing essays: I have gained so much from university, I’ve found out who I am. Something I’m not sure I could have done not going. So £30,000 debt I’ll take you (and try not to think about it until I have to pay it back) You only live once after all, I’m not the next David Starkey or female historian (insert name here) but so what? You have to try something first to find out whether you like it or not.
Now come on dissertation, its 23:23 … You don’t like me and I don’t like you but let’s crack on!
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